Sept

It doesnt seem lik a good month to start off with.. and yes! its damn disgusting dat it is now oledi Sept!!! Omg...

Actually im pretty worried @ tis moment...WY jus had a pinhole surgery.. everything shld be fine and XF is ther taking care.. ther's nothing pretty much i can do @ tis point of time even if im ther.. but stil i cant help to worry. this is probably WY's 1st hospitalization and surgery (though a small one)...i have been popping by the hospital every nite after wrk these few days.. its tiring, no doubt. But i knw hw horrible the feeling is, to be hospitalize and helplessly waiting for some help to come along. Its frustrating when u knw u cant control ur own body even.. yeah, dat feeling simply sucks!

no. 2
for a moment, i tot i shld be happy for SL to be able to go the plc long yearn for, finally. It was probably in plan anyway, jus brought forward earlier by chance (didnt knw it thro' word of mouth but was almost 100% sure dat it is happening from the situation i notice). it didnt feel gd. In fact, i think im a bad person, to be secretly, hoping that the plan will not wrk out @ all. Wat am i thinking? Am i mad?? My weird behavior is cmg bck.. dun ask me why cos i dun even hav dat ans for myself.. i DONT LIK IT.

no.3
was surprise to find CLP on fb. Surprisingly, i nv expect that CLP wil ever join fb.. saw the wedding photos as well... ok, i wun say im surprised cos i sort of expected it as i saw CLP with kid b4 @ jp. Saw the photos and spoted some old frds who also attended CLP's wedding... for a moment, i was happy, to have my frd request accepted, but den i realise the request was deleted soon after.. i guess the requested was accpeted cos CLP problably wanted to check it out who is this person who sent the request. And upon realising it was me, i think CLP immediately deleted the acceptance.... i was upset. y is CLP stil doing this to me after so many yrs of sudden boycotting?? i do not understd and i will nv hav the chance to knw the reason either..WHY? its unfair ok!!!!! i have long ago gav up and forgotton, i tot.. but it doesnt seem true nw dat im actually affected by dat fact. What the hell did i do wrong?

no.4 (and the only gd thing)
had a gut feeling dat ther could be a new post so i tired to access yz's blog. and true enuff, the new post was up, jus 2day! Lucky me.. to have found something dat could @ least peak up my mood for 5-10%. Ha!