its been abt 5 damn mths since my last blog...my secret blog..ha.

mood have started roller-coaster-ing again recently.. i guess its due to a chain of events..

i almost couldnt believe wat i was thinking.. i was secretly hoping deep dwn inside me dat it wil not be true.. though i knw, it eventually will someday.. i should hav share the joy if its positive, dat shld be the correct reaction but i din wanted it to be true. For i knw, i wun be able to accept the concrete fact. I mus be crazy, to hav such thoughts..

u knw wat? curiousity kills the cat.. and im as gd as being killed this instance. It has been confirmed. I knw.. i knw.. it sounded lik the whole thing is happening to me and that i didnt wan to accept the truth, But no. Its not me. Its a joy that i should be sharing wif a gd frd, but..