CDSMP = neW Life??

The CDSMP which i have joined will be starting in Sept.. which is due soon... i was surprised, @ my decision to join the program actually. I knew very well that i do not like to be catagorized.. and being part of the program will mean dat im somewat "labelled".

This will also mean that all my saturadays in Sept and early Oct will be burned.. which could be, good & bad. Ha. Contradicting ya? Yup, as it has always been..

i missed EB..... there is something different which i had felt but couldnt explained..but it was dat unexplained reason that kept me going back for the appointments thro' out these years. Have i already recovered? or was i afraid to step out? Yes, i have got nothing to lose by taking dat step..as EB mentioned. but somehw i can feel the unknown fear.. there will nv be anything i can get out of EB..even if its jus something simple. Im aware. I can only watch fr far.. in a corner.

For hw long shall this continue??

看悲欢喜怒每一步.. 是疲惫还是依赖的束缚..?